This is a collection of thoughts from a 30-something wife who lives in Cebu, Philippines. Here you can find her inner thoughts about life, love and faith. To know other areas of her, click on the menus. If you find anything interesting or a subject of discussion, don’t hesitant to comment. She loves to drink coffee paired with thoughtful discussions. 🙂
Publicly declared that Jesus is my personal Lord and Savior on June 3, 2017. But has been saved by His grace since June 2016. Below are questions and answers regarding my walk with Christ:
Who were you before God found you?
I was a woman of too much pride, narcissism with an insatiable desire for worldly things. I had a good life. Kind, generous and super friendly. I believe that you get what you give. My life was in order. I was well provided. I believe in God, prayed but I never knew that a relationship with Him is possible.
Where did you first knew about Him?
Back in college, my friends and I has joined a bible study group. We were called PSALMista. I was scheduled for baptism but something happened. I guess it wasn’t the perfect time yet. Then last February 2016, a friend invited me to Overflow. She has invited me before February but I always had reasons why I can’t. I was too busy, I thought. This friend shared that the February topic is about relationship so that piqued my curiosity. She was also very excited when she shared the love story of Ate Cielo and Kuya JP. I was there for her. Haha.
What was your turning point?
My story wasn’t really dramatic. I don’t really have any deep trouble or trials. Not carrying any burden somehow made me feel like an outcast. Every Overflow, the speakers would mentioned about burdens which I don’t really have. But one session, I was mentioned or my circumstance was mentioned. John 10:10 says that the thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy but Jesus comes that they may have life, and have it to the full. I realized that it was wrong to think that we only need God when we are down but more so when we are in comforts because the enemy can easily steal our joy if we don’t protect it. And aside from protecting what I have, God has been so good to me. Compared now, my life hasn’t been this good. I have been to a lot that being who I am now is a miracle. I feel that God has purposely called me to be near Him. He has loved me so much that it’s time I return Him all the glory and the love.
How was your journey with Him so far?
At this point in July 2017, my relationship with Him is growing stronger and stable. Back when I started, it was a struggle. I had a lot of preoccupations. When I finally let God control my life, I realized how superfluous I was. I had a lot of desires that weren’t healthy. I was too full of myself and though I kept telling how people’s idea of me no longer affects me like it does in the past, it still actually did. Unconsciously, I have let other people dictate my life. I haven’t really been true to myself. Being with God exposed me. It made me look at my life with new pair of eyes. I cringed at how I was before. I came to a point where I questioned everything I hold dear, questioned my values and what I do. I got so down, I felt helpless and somehow almost give up in pursuing Him. I was thinking that if I didn’t let Him in, I wouldn’t have the confusion I was having.
But God is just awesome. He was always there in my struggles. He sent people to help me make it through, to help me to understand that I needed to face my fears, to re-visit my pains to fully appreciate everything He has blessed me with. I have always wanted to change and each time I try, I fail. But with Him, change is an everyday thing. Even now, I am discovering things in myself that I never thought possible. Each time I read His word and worship Him, He tells me new things. There’s never a dull moment with God. And sometimes, I laugh out loud for the crazy things He puts in my head. Haha! God is now my best friend. Now decisions made are not fully mine alone. I listened to what He says and in constant prayer that He will be patient with me always.
What did you learn about Him so far?
God is awesome, loving and He talks to us everyday. We just didn’t have the time to listen to Him. Before, I always thought that doing good things is my ticket to salvation. Now, I know that we are already saved by His grace. Our salvation is not something we work for, it’s a gift from God. We just need to open the gift and receive it. But not because, we are already saved that we stop doing good, obedience to Him is part of our duty as His children. If we honor our earthly father who is just with us for a time, then we should honor our great Father who will be with us for eternity. I learned that He is very merciful and that no matter how dirty we think we are, God can cleansed us as white as snow. Everything is possible with Him. It’s never too late to come to Him. His doors are always open for those who are willing. Nothing can satisfy us more than His love and comforts. God sees everyone equally. No rich, no poor. No good, no sinners. In His eyes, we are all His beloved children.
What were your noticeable changes you accept Jesus as your personal Lord and savior?
My changes were overwhelming but most of it are inner changes. Before I have God, I was already good. I didn’t really have any ungodly physical. My main change was I have become picky . I now favor the right relationships. Unlike before where I try to just befriend everyone, now I value my words and my story. I am learning the art of listening more than talking. Being alone is not at all unnerving and weird. I have also learned to not force myself on people and forced them to me. And have taught myself to stay away from the poisons of social media. I still share but not as much as before. And these days, I noticed how I have become less bored. I have actually learned how to appreciate down times. Spending the weekend at home is mostly welcome nowadays. Hehe! And a lottttt more. I’ll remind myself to ask my friends if they notice anything. Hehe
What’s your long term plan being a Born Again Christian?
First on my list is to be more involve in church or find a ministry but I should be careful this time as I tend to get easily consumed with the tasks that I forgot the main purpose. I will start slow and should not push myself too hard. My main goal is to serve the Lord and not people. I will also start to be mentored in my walk with God. Being mentored is a first for me. I’m not really comfortable being mentored as I work best learning the ropes on my own. But I have to learn to be able to pursue a bigger role in the future. I still don’t know what that is so I’m preparing and doing what I can to be fully equipped.
What are your current habits and activities that help you in your relationship with God?
1. Attend church services:
a. Sunday Service 4:28 PM Sundays
b. Tuesday Prayer 8:00 AM Tuesdays
c. Overflow 7:00 PM Wednesdays
d. Community Bible Study International (CBSI) 7:00 PM Thursdays
2. Talking and catching up with NCR Ladies Life Group monthly.
3. Personal habits:
a. 1 chapter of the Bible everyday
b. Read daily devotional
c. Read bible commentaries
In closing, how would you introduce Jesus to someone you know?
Easier said than done but if I do get the chance to share, I’ll tell them how Jesus has made me better. And that they shouldn’t let prior hesitations stop them from knowing Him more. We are very eager to try other things but when it comes to the Lord, we are always hesitant. Nothing is more important than our relationship with God. The things in this world are temporary. God is permanent. Let’s store permanent treasures not temporary ones. Give Jesus a chance to show you how you can live louder in Him.
***Below is the first “About” of this site***
Because my very first battle is always a battle within. Writing them has always helped me and maybe, it can help you too. 🙂
***Beyond this line is the description I got from taking a personality exam that I have forgotten now. I loved it so much because it describes me so well.***
You are a person of great enthusiasm – easily excited by many things.